“It is what it is until it isn't”. Whatever the “it” represents in life at the moment, for me lately, the first “it” in that statement is a lot of feelings and insecurities that would have me frozen in my tracks. Feelings of inadequacy and fear of failing. I “feel” it would be so much easier to lay in bed or just run away to a coffee shop to simply sit and watch the world go by, but “I must go through it to get to it.”
My “it” at this moment is the uncomfortable process of personal development and growth I'm going through right now. It is a job change, finances, family, and being a mom. Once I get through "it", I will find "it" accompanied by satisfaction and pride in the fact I stuck it out. I made it through. I stayed till the end.
“It is what it is till it isn't” are the words that have kept me putting one foot in front of the other lately. They got me to the gym this morning where I had one of my most successful lifting days. 170lb squats and 200lb deadlifts were my success today.
It's amazing how life is full of analogies that can help us in every area of our life. For me, it has been my workouts at the gym. Today, I was able to follow through with my workout even though I didn’t “feel” like it. I ended up having success regardless of my current feelings because I just kept going. I literally just kept repeating to myself, “Hannah, it is what it is till it isn't.” My success in the gym today would not have happened if I had not kept through the hard days where I didn't want to go train in the gym. “It is what it is till it isn't.” I may feel the crappy way I do for a while longer, and that is okay. “It is what it is till it isn't”. Everyone’s “it” is different but relevant to each of us in some way. So I say “you must go through it to get to it.” If I am to keep progressing in lifting and in life, I must go through all the “its” I don't like to get to the “its” I long for.
“It is what it is till it isn't” are the words that kept me in line today. Those words got me to the gym and made for a successful workday. I’m venturing into a new line of work for my brother's company, and it's very uncomfortable because it's work I've never done before. There are a lot of “feelings” that make me wish I could run away and hide. But it is what it is until it isn't.
Today, I entertained the thought of skipping the gym due to not “feeling” like working out. “It is what it is till it isn't” got my ass to the gym, and I had one of my strongest lifting days yet. I squatted sets of 170lbs and deadlifted sets of 200lbs! That is only possible for me because I have just kept at it. I've kept putting one foot in front of the other on the days I've wanted to quit and just go eat scones at a coffee shop or lay in bed instead of doing the “hard” things.
I have another saying that goes, “You must go through it to get to it.” The uncomfortable pressure of work right now is creating some intense feelings that would like to keep me from trying, but “it is what it is till it isn't.”
I have been feeling less than awesome about the way my life “feels” lately. I think that is something we all can attest to at times. I am definitely not original in that.
I woke up wishing today was Sunday, and that I could sit in bed, drink coffee, and study things I wanted to study without feeling rushed or having to think about work. Obviously, that is not the case today. The hustle and bustle of rushing kids off to school took precedence over coffee in bed.
I don’t “feel” like being a mom, going to the gym, or working.
“It is what it is till it isn't.” This phrase keeps me going. Either the circumstances will change or the “feelings” will change.
The one thing I know is “you have to go through it to get to it.” I've been living with this nagging feeling of discouragement lately. I am reminded strangely that it's just a feeling right now. Learning to Feel the feeling without becoming the feeling is a huge part of my personal growth.
After dropping the kids off at school, it was time to hit the gym for leg day. Even this, I feel like trading in for a scone and coffee at the coffee shop.
